currently:
listening to: When I Come Around

Ok so there is this boy, his name is Mark. A while back i met him threw my cousin, not actually meeting him face to face, online you know and he lives in Texas. Whe n i first started talking to him he didnt really like me, he said i sounded too preppy. { at that time.. a while ago i was kinda prepish >_<} And so my cousin, her name is summer AKA chelsea, Turned me punk! and alot lately Makr has been getting on and talking to me, and when he's on the phone talking to chelsea, she told me that he talks about me alot! and at this point im think is this a good thing to be almost screaming?! and in this month i have been talking about him even more, and more. I have been getting this feeling that when i talk to him or about him, i... i get this nausios feeling inside me and when ever he likedoes something really sweet or stupid or funny i just wanna scream! Well anyways, last week i was talking to chelsea at school and brought up that mark really keeps talking about me and stuff, then she told me that mark said that he'll go out with me but i have to ask him! he said that he dont ask girls that he gets nervice! like now just writing this im all shakey! The thing that sucks is that helives in texas and i live in maryland!!! but marks best friend tre' { like tre cool...ironic aint it!} like my cousin chelsea! yeah her and tre went out before, im not really sure why they broke up though. yeah and tre used to come down to maryland to go over his dads. and chelsea told me that mark sometimes came down with him! so chelsea goes out with this boy john and all but she said if anything were to happen with them that she would go right back out with trevor. and the thing ok with that is that tre would come down and so would mark!!! and sice i praticly live over my cousins that would work out.. buti dont know what mark is doin when hes back home?! when im not around! im mean i never even met him yet! face to face anyways.. oh my god, i seriously dont know what to do! like i really think im falling for him! and like if i do ask him out what am i gonna be like " hey mark will you go out with me?" and make myself sound like an idiot!!! *sighs* uh.... i know this may sound gay as hell, but if you know what to do or whatever...can you like give me sugestions?
Thank you,
Amber

Now I cannot speak, I lost my voice
I'm speechless and redundant
'Cause I love you's not enough
I'm lost for words

Gah this song really goes with this eh? -_-